[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	run///snow patrol	]

yesterday was the family picnic. it was alright. we decided to walk thru the woods. on the trail. me, lydia, and justin started and then of course the kids had to come. omg ive never gotten attact by so many misquitoes. omg. we had to turn around. i couldnt take it.

i had a weird dream about abby last night. she was all weird for a few months around me. and then one day she was upset and called me over. so i went over there and she was crying and i asked her wat was wrong. she pushed me away and looked at me to the point i wasnt hugging her anymore. she looked down and started to explain. "amber...we've been hanging out alot. u know how much my friends mean to me, and that im not gay." i was like..."uh...okay?" i was confused. "u were there for me no matter what. thru me doing drugs even after everyone stopped talking to me. u wrote me when i was in rehab...u never turned ur back on me...uve always been there. u still loved me. i guess wat im trying to say is..." she looked me right in my eyes. "im...im in love with you. i never thought that possible." i was so shocked. all i could do was stare at her. "i thought u didnt like girls." "thats the thing...i dont...but uve done something to me i never thought would happen." im still confused. i got up and walked around the room. "omg...wow...abby i dont know wat to say. i mean...wow." she got up and walked toward me. "u dont have to say anything." she kinda backed me up against her door and hugged me. it took me asecond to acually put my arms around her. she started crying again and i pet her hair and told her not to be sad. she pulled away and i wiped her face and smiled. "it's okay kid. dont cry." she looked me in my eyes and kissed me. at first i was shocked...but i kissed her back.

then i woke up. i dont know y i had that dream. i havent had a crush on abby in like 2 years. and when i did have a crush on her i had a really big one. i was crazy about her. but for a really REALLY long time thats wat shes been to me...a friend. so now im confused. y the hell would i have this dream?

[

mood

|

pissed off

]

maybe i should start having sex w/ everyone i know. it has been almost 4 years. watch'a think?

i love sarcasm

[	mood	|	determined	]
[	music	|	franklin///paramore	]

And when we get home, I know we won't be home at all
This place we live, it is not where we belong
And I miss who we were in the town that we could call our own
Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

So we stand here now and no one knows us at all
I won't get used to this
I won't get used to being gone
And going back won't feel the same if we aren't staying
Going back to get away after everything has changed

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
(Everything has changed)
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
(Everything has changed)
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

Taking up our time
Taking up our time
Taking up our time
It's taking up our time again
Go back we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time again
Go back we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time again
Go back we can't go back at all
It's taking up our time, taking up our time

Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?

FRIENDS ONLY!!!!!

Comment To Be Added